sweeeeetttt dreammmmms~ where are you.~
Monday, March 31, 2008
9:34 AM
the nightmares i had the last few nights are creeping me out!
FOR 3 CONSECUTIVE NIGHTS ALR!
it's madness la~
WHERE ARE MY "SWEET DREAMS" MSGes!!!
i can only rmb one of those where i was carrying a child and pregnant with another, worst thing is, my guy ditched me before we could even get married.
i know it happens all the time, and it's reality for some women, but the thought of it really creeps me out.
anyways, cruelty comes one way or another, bound to get it somehow.
like cass's " intelligent intimacy", i shall name this " amorphos brutality", they come when you least expect it and everytime, brings along a great impact.=/
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Friday, March 28, 2008
1:26 AM
your thoughts weaved into powerless words.
but your eyes gave it away.
where innocence is at the lowest point
and staring at me in such disdain.
our blood ties,
i paid it with never-ending fear.
and the laughter we shared,
in contrast, were so faint...
0.o
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
8:48 PM
mark harris is my no1 superman, he made me understand microecons within 3 hrs. He should have done revision lessons long ago,coz the past 10 lessons were redundant.
He's a heavy smoker,
he's a joker=)
i have a very strong feeling that this weekend will be a blast. First, we have the tourmaline's birthday party at phuture.Second, shiying's birthday party at her house at king's road, a pity tt she cancelled the theme geek and square, coz i'm confident tt i can be the geekiest tt day(and only fer tt day).LOL
bare your heart and tell me it's the truth,
regardless of what's going to come and what's going on.
Coz waiting is torture to my mind and my soul.
Or not, cut me off frm the breakable thread,
and make me fall once and for all.
Even with the blasting music and elated crowd,
what gets to me is still loneliness and nothing less.
it takes some work to make it work,
it takes some good to make it hurt.
shiok
Monday, March 24, 2008
8:42 AM
i recieved it 2 hrs ago
X:hey eugena, i'm sorry about today. i didnt mean to yell at you.i was wrong.sorry.=/
E: no reply
ne nanny poo poo..
you just saved your arse...=P
i'm gonna go gym tmr...and studiowu this sat...yippeee
psycho on the blk
12:06 AM
i made so many new friends from zouk, and they were nice and i know we could be really good friends.
but because i always think this way, i totally leave out the possibility of meeting psychos.
let's name him X fer easy reference.
(portion of it)
X: i know you dont want to talk to me.i understand=)
(and i didnt reply, hrs later....)
X: i just msged your friend cass and i thought i should msg you, but if you still dont wanna talk, i can understand
E: oh..i'm talking to her online now and reverse psycho doesnt work on me=)
X:do i really? i'm glad that u finally talk to me
E:fine, nights
(this morning)
X: morning, i just realized the hurtful words you said to me last night.i'm a decent guy so i didnt try to disrespect you but hope you realize something bout your character and come to humble yourself.choice is yours.
E: i did?
X: i thought it was quite rude.haha.did you go sch today, btw, i'm in commando camp.
E: rude?! i think u misunderstood me.. and sch only starts on wed.btw..i gotta go mug.. laters
X:so proud leh you, all of a sudden you have to go.Strange, if that's the way you handle things, tt's scary man..guess you dont have consideration for my feelings
E: if this is proud,i'll will have to accept it, we all have our commitments to fulfil, i dont stay 24/7 by the phone
X:no la i asked you wad mug was.least you could have replied me, i mean c'mon, it' s common courtesy, then now u say u accept it..Instead, constructed your sentence in a defensive way. u'll end up losing friends in no time.it's such a turnoff.Honest.
E: (no reply)
X:k la.i wont bother you. such a lousy attitude, you have no pt of consideration, it's lousy la, take care, cant believe you have no feelings.
E:( still no reply)
f*****, aint it?
and i always get very affected when someone say i got a lousy attitude, or say they dont like me or smth like that..
this is still okay, since i know he's out to put me down and i dont really know him...
bad morning..
one more msg, i'll kick your arse to mars..
another unproductive day..
Thursday, March 20, 2008
9:42 AM
PMS is over.
i was having serious mood swings over the last few days..
but NOT TODAY..
coz dad's at home, and now that they know how to play mahjiong.
my thursday was a blast~!!
not to mention that my friends are asking me to mug and all through MSN..LOL..
it's quite irritating coz i was doing smth FAR FROM MUGGING..
soon soon okay...
=D
=X
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
3:28 AM
i finally place a full-stop to the embarrassments i had today.
or rather a comma...=/
knowing that i have fr lesson to attend this morning at 8 .30, i slept at 5am...
according to wx, tt's not sleeping, tt's a nap.
i tried to force myself to slp, but couldnt resist the temptation to watch johansson on nanny's diaries=D.
my alarm started ringing at 6, but i only left bed at 6.30, it could be seven if not for the scenes that i could still remember so vividly from rule no1.
it's not scary, but it's gross.
so i left bed, wash up then leave the hse..
it seems normal BUT I HAD TO LEAVE MY HSE WITH 2 FUCKIN DIFFERENT SHOES LA~
no wait..
it was the same shoes, but 2 different colors.
and u know wads the best part...i only realize it when i was inside the LT, when i picked up my pen.
wah lao...
i had to appear nonchalant about it, so that ppl would think i did it on purpose.
i told sulin they all during the break and they end up laughing really loudly la~, the whole world knows alr lor....TSK!
so i strolled in with the my-shoes-are-nice kind of look coz the lecturer was staring at my feet.
and apparently, he made the situation worse by extending the lesson fer more than 1/2 hr...
in my class, i always notice these 2 girls at the back, coz they dress very differently from the rest, they r more of the indie style than the beng lian look.
to most ppl, they r considered weird.
BUT THEY LOOKED AT ME MOST OF THE TIME.
so i guess, today i'm really weird... or maybe they will do the same thing fer the next lesson...LOL..i can totally picture that la~
that aside... i think i'm losing my friends at a faster rate than me making new friends.
it has never crossed my mind that i'm hard to get along or wad, so wads the main prob?..
i always make the wrong friends?
=(
~
Sunday, March 16, 2008
3:29 AM
it's sunday alr..
so that means..i need to get down to mugging really soon.
hai hai hai hai hai..
i wish i wish i wish..
that i have graduated, fret no more bout the ever-so-difficult mods.
that i have grown up, and stop doing foolish things ever so often.
that i can have a pack of french fries with caramel frappe right now.
that ppl would still like britney spears despite the constant appearance on the papers, she's made fer the industry,getit?
that the ppl arnd me stop being so complicated, those simple stay simple=P
to have someone that would sweep me off my feet.(chances are really slim, coz everyone has it on their list,=X)
that i'm going to learn modern dance really soon.
my nose is sharper.
THAT I'M HAPPIER =(
crazy food alert
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
11:12 PM
did you know that.............
honey is the only food that doesnt go away from ur body?
oh you better remember it, coz u will never know if how many cups of honey milk tea or how many honey-bbq-ed wings you've eaten fer the last few years.
to add on tt impact, mayo and tartar takes 6 months to go away, dont gobble down your food with big dips of mayo next time..BIG NO NO...
creeeeeeeeepy....
i think i will just eat bread with milo fer my meals next time...LOL
yesterday was crazy....we were switching from place to place coz phuture has no place fer me...
hahahahahs.
dont let me see the freakin bouncer again, treat girls like crap la~
he must be gay..ha!
you can place ur opinion on me, i may or may not conform
but reverse psychology is not the way to go about it.
EEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
~~
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
7:57 AM
i need to find something to do, to occupy my time.
i'nve been munching chocolates, watching simple life all day.
this time can be used to do more meaningful things other than watching paris and nicole ruin their lives.
the ppl starring in it suggests that it's a dumb show..
but it's funny how they lead their lives.
u better dont ask them to clean up the mess, coz they will create a bigger mess!!!
and there's this part where nicole and paris are suppose to organize a pagent fer the moms, and nicole was saying prayers fer the whole group, and she started with "my dear pageant god....."
hahahahs..bimbos are fun
OOOoooooooooooooo
Friday, March 7, 2008
1:19 AM
i have a perfect job fer u.
serial dater.
=D
i have a perfect job fer myself.
passer-by..
*nods nods
you r so much more attractive and competitive than i actually imagined.
=D
"complicated" underrates you.
letsa have some fun.
ask god(wen shen)
Saturday, March 1, 2008
10:06 AM
my dad brought me to the medium today.I'm not sure if it's called the medium but i just know it's a sacred place where a being is being possessed by the so called.."god".
it's damn intimidating la~
scary~~~~~~~~
when he talked to me, i was damn scared la~
i can actually feel my guts....like literally.
and he asked questions in dialect...even worse!
i dont know if wad he said to me was positive, or more likely, neutral,
i'm so going to do the opp.
=P.
i'll try. if i really cant make the mark, i can only accept the fact that he live up to his name.
