mycrypt

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2008-07-18T07:49:00.001-07:00

even when the broken vase is glued back perfectly,
we still know where exactly the cracks are.
you just have to turn back and walk away, it's not like i'm not familiar with that fading silhouette.

for good.=D

i know you're PEEPING!

o.o

2008-07-05T21:25:00.000-07:00

you're honey sweet.
but tt's not what i need.
it's gd to know tt you're always there to share my joy, or even create the joy.
but what bout when i'm in despair?
it hurts even more to know that there's someone there but could just walk out on you when you need him most.
but isnt it reliance we're looking for?

i like you but i dont need you.

2008-05-23T01:56:00.001-07:00

the thought of having a simple life is not simple at all.

mesh

2008-05-23T01:41:00.000-07:00

what's the closest description.
wire mesh.
complicated and entangled on the outside but was never filled on the inside.
there you have it..
creating problems out of nothing.
your mind is occupied with nothingness.

it's tiring coz it breeds capriciousness.
i'm doing things out of impulse and the strong intention to fill my day instead of pressing reasons.

stop being so flighty, E.

MOSSY MOS.

2008-05-11T21:42:00.000-07:00

i havent chill w my friends fer a long long time.
ytd was the first in a million years.=D
you dont feel the day wasted when it's really wasted.
there are so many things i wanna do after the papers and the fact tt almost all have finished their exams......HAIZ.

shun bday celeb was not bad, her house was packed la.. and we had to sit beside her dad..=/
not that it's a bad thing, but her dad just looks too stern to talk to..
EVEN WEE KEAT CANT get lame with him la....TT MEANS HE'S REALLY *ahem...

AND GUESS WAD..i have new parts to my CHA SAO BAO SEQUEL!
but i thought it wasnt as funny as the very first one
the first is just too funny...but those ppl just cant seem to get it..
ha.

life's good=D

i feel good....nah nah nah nah nah

it just happens.

2008-05-10T22:52:00.000-07:00

i went to rp to get food ytd, and guess who i saw...YL.
it's not a huge thing la, but he's often discussed among alice and weilin they all.
so i wanted to send lin the msg to tell her that he has gained weight, since she saw him not long ago at rp too.
the funny thing is...i sent it to YL instead.
DAMN STUPID..gosh.
and i had to kangkong through, to say it as if it was meant to be sent to him.
since YL is as blur as me, i dont think he will think tt much.=D

i'm going fer shun's bday celeb later=D=D=D
hope there r lots to eat..!!!!

sexy yet cute.

2008-05-04T01:08:00.000-07:00

zac efron is sooo passe~
take a look at the ever-so- charming jesse mccartney.
and i'm sure you will never tune back to DISNEY CHANNEL AGAIN.

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2008-04-30T05:55:00.001-07:00

i was mugging my whole day away at amk today.
fretting over the figures that turned up from nowhere.
and receiving clubbing msges throughout the day!
and i just found out tt it's pris's birthday.
happy birthday...
i know right...shir?!
ha

soon soon...i will show mark harris how price inelastic phuture is, and james kwan what ordinary life is.
hor kwan?..it's not always about getting another masters.
ha.
drained.

sarah sarah sarah

2008-04-29T07:36:00.000-07:00

u know why i like sarah so much....?
coz she's very much like me...
she needs someone to remind her her seat before entering the exam hall,
and even if that's the case, she wouldnt be surprized when someone tap her from behind to say "wrong seat".
she can fall into the middle of the bush while looking up to find her friend, and her friends would rush to her to ask "are you okay".
she would fall even if the floor is not slippery, with her friend by her side because she's too engrossed in what her friends had to say.
she would still miss out words in a sentence even if her finger has pointed every single word.
she would stare into space even if there's a super hot guy beside her.
she would think that the lizard in the milo cup is undissolved milo, and would screamed her lungs out to see 2 eyes staring at her from the very same mug.
she would get hit by the ball even if she wasnt in the field( i haven tried that b4, but the thought of it makes me laugh non-stop.
she would pray fer the airplane to crash when the papers are arnd the corner.

how could i bear to give up such student.=D

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2008-04-05T22:46:00.000-07:00

we all have our roles to play in life,
as daughters, as sisters and as students
and sometimes you will wonder how much you need to devote yourself into that duty to be considered enough.
perhaps, it's never enough,

we'll never know how far we can go until we've reached our limits,
be just like a rubber band, stretch it all out.
even if you snap, we'll always be there to wield you back

yooohoooo~tt's fer you, aha, dont look around, i see you~~~

footprints in the sand-leona lewis

2008-04-04T14:33:00.000-07:00

i found this in somebody's ipod.
i thought she only had bubblegum pop,
LOL

footprints in the sand-leona lewis

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going
You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way then I heard you say I promise you I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow And despair
And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
I see my life flash across the sky so many times have I been so afraid
ohh yeahh and just when I
I thought I lost my way you give me strength to carry on that's when I heard you say
I promise you I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair and
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand when
I'm weary well I know you be there and I can feel you when you say
I promise you I'm always there when your heart is filled with sadness and despair ohh, I'll carry you when you need a friend you'll find my footprints in the sand

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2008-04-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

An uber long day at sch,
and my head is splitting like nobody's biz,
econs revision and the late cf lesson to blame.

when i thought i could call it a day,
MY BRO HAS TO BUG ME AT THIS TIME WITH THE CHALLENGING QUESTIONS.!!!
you know, those 2 questions at the back of your math paper.
it's even more challenging to explain to them without using algebra and in layman's.
nonetheless, it's a good sign tt my head is splitting because of econs and not alcohol.LOL

i've grown outta soda, i'm into NESCAFE~

sweeeeetttt dreammmmms~ where are you.~

2008-03-31T09:34:00.000-07:00

the nightmares i had the last few nights are creeping me out!
FOR 3 CONSECUTIVE NIGHTS ALR!
it's madness la~
WHERE ARE MY "SWEET DREAMS" MSGes!!!

i can only rmb one of those where i was carrying a child and pregnant with another, worst thing is, my guy ditched me before we could even get married.
i know it happens all the time, and it's reality for some women, but the thought of it really creeps me out.
anyways, cruelty comes one way or another, bound to get it somehow.
like cass's " intelligent intimacy", i shall name this " amorphos brutality", they come when you least expect it and everytime, brings along a great impact.=/

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2008-03-28T01:26:00.000-07:00

your thoughts weaved into powerless words.
but your eyes gave it away.
where innocence is at the lowest point
and staring at me in such disdain.

our blood ties,
i paid it with never-ending fear.
and the laughter we shared,
in contrast, were so faint...

0.o

2008-03-26T20:48:00.000-07:00

mark harris is my no1 superman, he made me understand microecons within 3 hrs. He should have done revision lessons long ago,coz the past 10 lessons were redundant.
He's a heavy smoker,
he's a joker=)

i have a very strong feeling that this weekend will be a blast. First, we have the tourmaline's birthday party at phuture.Second, shiying's birthday party at her house at king's road, a pity tt she cancelled the theme geek and square, coz i'm confident tt i can be the geekiest tt day(and only fer tt day).LOL

bare your heart and tell me it's the truth,
regardless of what's going to come and what's going on.
Coz waiting is torture to my mind and my soul.
Or not, cut me off frm the breakable thread,
and make me fall once and for all.

Even with the blasting music and elated crowd,
what gets to me is still loneliness and nothing less.

it takes some work to make it work,
it takes some good to make it hurt.

shiok

2008-03-24T08:42:00.000-07:00

i recieved it 2 hrs ago

X:hey eugena, i'm sorry about today. i didnt mean to yell at you.i was wrong.sorry.=/
E: no reply

ne nanny poo poo..
you just saved your arse...=P

i'm gonna go gym tmr...and studiowu this sat...yippeee

psycho on the blk

2008-03-24T00:06:00.000-07:00

i made so many new friends from zouk, and they were nice and i know we could be really good friends.
but because i always think this way, i totally leave out the possibility of meeting psychos.
let's name him X fer easy reference.
(portion of it)

X: i know you dont want to talk to me.i understand=)
(and i didnt reply, hrs later....)
X: i just msged your friend cass and i thought i should msg you, but if you still dont wanna talk, i can understand
E: oh..i'm talking to her online now and reverse psycho doesnt work on me=)
X:do i really? i'm glad that u finally talk to me
E:fine, nights
(this morning)

X: morning, i just realized the hurtful words you said to me last night.i'm a decent guy so i didnt try to disrespect you but hope you realize something bout your character and come to humble yourself.choice is yours.
E: i did?
X: i thought it was quite rude.haha.did you go sch today, btw, i'm in commando camp.
E: rude?! i think u misunderstood me.. and sch only starts on wed.btw..i gotta go mug.. laters

X:so proud leh you, all of a sudden you have to go.Strange, if that's the way you handle things, tt's scary man..guess you dont have consideration for my feelings
E: if this is proud,i'll will have to accept it, we all have our commitments to fulfil, i dont stay 24/7 by the phone
X:no la i asked you wad mug was.least you could have replied me, i mean c'mon, it' s common courtesy, then now u say u accept it..Instead, constructed your sentence in a defensive way. u'll end up losing friends in no time.it's such a turnoff.Honest.
E: (no reply)
X:k la.i wont bother you. such a lousy attitude, you have no pt of consideration, it's lousy la, take care, cant believe you have no feelings.
E:( still no reply)

f*****, aint it?
and i always get very affected when someone say i got a lousy attitude, or say they dont like me or smth like that..
this is still okay, since i know he's out to put me down and i dont really know him...
bad morning..
one more msg, i'll kick your arse to mars..

another unproductive day..

2008-03-20T09:42:00.000-07:00

PMS is over.
i was having serious mood swings over the last few days..
but NOT TODAY..
coz dad's at home, and now that they know how to play mahjiong.
my thursday was a blast~!!

not to mention that my friends are asking me to mug and all through MSN..LOL..
it's quite irritating coz i was doing smth FAR FROM MUGGING..

soon soon okay...
=D

=X

2008-03-19T03:28:00.000-07:00

i finally place a full-stop to the embarrassments i had today.

or rather a comma...=/

knowing that i have fr lesson to attend this morning at 8 .30, i slept at 5am...

according to wx, tt's not sleeping, tt's a nap.

i tried to force myself to slp, but couldnt resist the temptation to watch johansson on nanny's diaries=D.

my alarm started ringing at 6, but i only left bed at 6.30, it could be seven if not for the scenes that i could still remember so vividly from rule no1.

it's not scary, but it's gross.

so i left bed, wash up then leave the hse..

it seems normal BUT I HAD TO LEAVE MY HSE WITH 2 FUCKIN DIFFERENT SHOES LA~

no wait..

it was the same shoes, but 2 different colors.

and u know wads the best part...i only realize it when i was inside the LT, when i picked up my pen.

wah lao...

i had to appear nonchalant about it, so that ppl would think i did it on purpose.

i told sulin they all during the break and they end up laughing really loudly la~, the whole world knows alr lor....TSK!

so i strolled in with the my-shoes-are-nice kind of look coz the lecturer was staring at my feet.

and apparently, he made the situation worse by extending the lesson fer more than 1/2 hr...

in my class, i always notice these 2 girls at the back, coz they dress very differently from the rest, they r more of the indie style than the beng lian look.

to most ppl, they r considered weird.

BUT THEY LOOKED AT ME MOST OF THE TIME.

so i guess, today i'm really weird... or maybe they will do the same thing fer the next lesson...LOL..i can totally picture that la~

that aside... i think i'm losing my friends at a faster rate than me making new friends.

it has never crossed my mind that i'm hard to get along or wad, so wads the main prob?..
i always make the wrong friends?
=(

~

2008-03-16T03:29:00.000-07:00

it's sunday alr..
so that means..i need to get down to mugging really soon.
hai hai hai hai hai..

i wish i wish i wish..
that i have graduated, fret no more bout the ever-so-difficult mods.
that i have grown up, and stop doing foolish things ever so often.
that i can have a pack of french fries with caramel frappe right now.
that ppl would still like britney spears despite the constant appearance on the papers, she's made fer the industry,getit?
that the ppl arnd me stop being so complicated, those simple stay simple=P
to have someone that would sweep me off my feet.(chances are really slim, coz everyone has it on their list,=X)
that i'm going to learn modern dance really soon.
my nose is sharper.
THAT I'M HAPPIER =(

crazy food alert

2008-03-12T23:12:00.000-07:00

did you know that.............
honey is the only food that doesnt go away from ur body?
oh you better remember it, coz u will never know if how many cups of honey milk tea or how many honey-bbq-ed wings you've eaten fer the last few years.

to add on tt impact, mayo and tartar takes 6 months to go away, dont gobble down your food with big dips of mayo next time..BIG NO NO...
creeeeeeeeepy....
i think i will just eat bread with milo fer my meals next time...LOL

yesterday was crazy....we were switching from place to place coz phuture has no place fer me...
hahahahahs.
dont let me see the freakin bouncer again, treat girls like crap la~
he must be gay..ha!

you can place ur opinion on me, i may or may not conform
but reverse psychology is not the way to go about it.
EEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

~~

2008-03-11T07:57:00.000-07:00

i need to find something to do, to occupy my time.
i'nve been munching chocolates, watching simple life all day.
this time can be used to do more meaningful things other than watching paris and nicole ruin their lives.

the ppl starring in it suggests that it's a dumb show..
but it's funny how they lead their lives.
u better dont ask them to clean up the mess, coz they will create a bigger mess!!!

and there's this part where nicole and paris are suppose to organize a pagent fer the moms, and nicole was saying prayers fer the whole group, and she started with "my dear pageant god....."
hahahahs..bimbos are fun

OOOoooooooooooooo

2008-03-07T01:19:00.000-08:00

i have a perfect job fer u.
serial dater.
=D

i have a perfect job fer myself.
passer-by..
*nods nods

you r so much more attractive and competitive than i actually imagined.
=D
"complicated" underrates you.
letsa have some fun.

ask god(wen shen)

2008-03-01T10:06:00.000-08:00

my dad brought me to the medium today.I'm not sure if it's called the medium but i just know it's a sacred place where a being is being possessed by the so called.."god".
it's damn intimidating la~
scary~~~~~~~~

when he talked to me, i was damn scared la~
i can actually feel my guts....like literally.
and he asked questions in dialect...even worse!
i dont know if wad he said to me was positive, or more likely, neutral,
i'm so going to do the opp.
=P.
i'll try. if i really cant make the mark, i can only accept the fact that he live up to his name.

stop and stare.

2008-02-29T10:42:00.000-08:00

it may be overplayed.
might be voted against.
might be puked upon.
might be a song which ppl has no attention fer.
might be even meaningless fer the lyrics to be sang.

but it has gone through a lot.
in situations we question.
in thoughts we abort.
in playlist that we often do not see.

only when it surfaces, do we discover their faint existence.
and as time goes by, fame relishes the beats, distinguished.
Or not,
EXTINGUISHED.

project runway

2008-02-27T23:51:00.000-08:00

those who have not watched the lastest season of project runway should.
this is the best season ever...i tell you..
those designers are good to start with.
i'm now watching epi 3, where the designers kare suppose to design men's wear out of cloths..
they are not familiar with it, but they're still pretty awesome.

one of the models was damn funny, he cant even walk properly coZ..the designer underestimate the crotch's size...
you should go watch it.

bu-shuang.

2008-02-26T07:48:00.000-08:00

now i feel damn bu shuang
coz darren just told me so many terms on cf that i havent heard about.
and guess wad, the mock tmr is 7 -10pm
by the time i reached home, it'll be next morning alr.

DAMNNNNNNNN BU-SHUANG LA~
this feeling doesnt come like that...it's cumulative u see.
and i think the block wants to maintain this as a online relationship which i'm not interested in.
but how to tell him sia..
i'm not that young girl who always acts on impulse anymore, i cant just tell him straight.
and he might not even know even if i opened my mouth, you seeeeeeee.

on the other hand, z asked why i peeped at him....
MY GOD.
it's good fer ppl to be straightforward sometimes...but he definitely is not up to it.
so i replied" i dont peep, i look"

z: why are u looking at me then"
e: the same reason other ppl looked at you, u look like jay.
e:must be annoying at times huh..
(just when i thought i diverted the topic, here comes"
z: how many bfs do you have?
e:1
z: u gave your first time to him then?
e: which first time?
z:the v word( at the time, peck and i were bitching on sms
e: wad v word?
z: the peck's v word?
(and i asked peck)
and peck: virginity, you tootz
e: * shocked but acted calm. and said, no..i didnt..
to think i didnt even peck my ex...this was funny.

wad's this world coming to....i only hang out with the extremes is it..
i'm off...gotta mug cf..=(

mon

2008-02-25T08:56:00.000-08:00

went to watch L with jerome, before a tiny bit of shopping and then meeting up with cass, peck and irene fer pepperlunch.
it wasnt really my intention initially, coz the main aim was to mug.
peck and gang can really mug until they end up in town la~...i wonder why =0.

i had a tiff with my mom before i went out, and i had to leave the stupid phone within her parameters before i came back from town..
shit+crap

u know wads the worse thing...i've known jerome since last yr and he just told me tt his name is nashon and not jerome.
hahahs..i dont know why, but i felt cheated..damn!
so many names fer wad...ZzzzzZ

there r funny things tt i cant blog bout ...so..
call me fer more info...
LOL

a normal sat,(i thought it would be diff,ha!)

2008-02-23T20:59:00.000-08:00

ytd was atrocious.
i was looking fer study companion, and i would have guessed that it was impossible to study with them.
actually, i did expected that, so i just brought my tutorials there to do.
however, adam was there last night(i know him thru peck), and he's leaving fer walawala/walala, so the 2 girls(peck and irene) was tempted la.
the thing is, i dont pub,i would rather go zouk tt night, but it was quite a distance.
so eugena had to sit down there throughout the night drinking beer and listening to live band.

i would say that the live band was good, maybe a 1000 times better than wad we see on singapore idol, LOL!.
and i only got to know that the lead was actually shirleen towards the end of the performance.
you know....the shirleen who sang this song(i cant rmb the title), but it's been playing on the radio since godknowswhen la~
she's really good, but i hope this is the first and the last, since my concentration span is quite short, i cant possibly stare at a person, fer a couple of hrs.=P

my mom is not pleased with me again, hai....
i also dont know wad i did wrong la...this time.
but since tt's the case, it would only make sense if i crash weilin's place.!=D
cheerios~

micro not alone

2008-02-21T06:05:00.000-08:00

thank god i've kwan's company, if not i would have died in micro..ahahs.!
this is the last lesson, in other words, it marks the beginning of the muggin process!

online shopping is such a killer, coz.....there's no end..
you would think tt u can minimize ur shopping allowance online, but u r so wrong.
I'M SO WRONG!

bb is bitching bout me again..hahahahs.
E's druken repertoire..damn!..
i'm f****** infamous there~

at first, i thought the blog was created under the name of fun..
but it's getting scarier by day, they just had to squeeze something out from u.
paparrazi of a smaller circle=X

that aside, i heard ed is going to quit the entertainment circle, ha! how can anyone quit a social circle, i bet he will still be on the news as often as he is now. It's such a waste anyways, somebody can be that good-looking, wait, that is still an understatement , HE'S GOD-SENT!=D!
you think all those die-hard fans would stop liking him because of the recent hoo-ha he created...it's a clear NO, at least we know it.
he, a rich, good-looking chap has every incentive to do such a thing*nods*
slap me if you want, but i have to spit out the truth =D

i've a chocolate fudge waiting fer me...............................

i hear u.....

*poof*

blogblogblog

2008-02-20T08:15:00.000-08:00

i wonder why i havent been bloggin since i've spent most of the time staring into this screen.
life was as usual, nothing really interesting or good happened to me..
as usual would mean more misfortunes instead.

i cant think of something big but the night i spent with "hotties" on d,g,w's birthday celebration.
i actually told the taxi uncle to club with us la, i must be really drunk.
and all the funny things happened in the taxi.

ck: sit still( hand over my shoulders)
E:whose hand is this?
ck: guess?
E: this hand is from guess?

d'uh...and they had to tell me that i sound smarter when i'm drunk....cheaters!ha!

i'm going to leave the geeks and square fer good this time...i've never thought what they would think of me( in their "square" perspective,LoL). i mean....stubborn person cant be stick in the mud fer all their life, they should know wad are the "untouchables" and leave them fer good right?
Poor me, coz i always thought i've the ability to mould somebody to lead a "healthier " life.
it's all bout preferences, i may think tt something is atrocious and they might hold tt something close to their heart. WAKE UP CALL.

i used to think that mimiyan is mysterious, and is so curious bout him.ha! i didnt know tt somebody can be tt monotonous, tt's why the "mysterious"..... i'm so WRONG...HUNS...
and he sounds shy talking to me so i figured out it was awkward fer me to continue convos at times....SO....i msged " i used to like u,but not anymore... good friends-to -be!"

tt aside...
one of my friends in sch told me tt i look stuck-up before he knew me.
how come i wasnt surprize at all... hahahs.
but guess what.....
he's blacklisted!!!!...

jl is going to taiwan fer xing guang 3 competition.
so he's going to skip exams this yr...and tt means my micro and cf bud is gone.
he's funny at times...w/o knowing it...
lucky me...this coming thurs lesson is the last one...phew..
anyways...there might be a high possibility tt i'll sit beside him fer the same lect next yr(you do know why huh!)
envy gaziliion times!
he likes to sing, and he wants to sing...and now SING FER ALL HE WANT.!
i thought dreams are what u cannot get...-.-
hahhas...nonetheless.. i'm happy fer him...
i thought of getting a teddy voice recorder fer the following msg..
" actually, u r such an asshole"
hahahahahahahahs!
i know he wouldnt be angry.=P

okay...now now.... havent been bloggin doesnt mean tt there's no end to these crap..
besides, the online vendors are mass emailing me.... i will be busy fer the next couple of hrs >.-
peace out*